Wednesday, 28 October 2015

I knew You : Prelude

It's happened around 2009 back then. He said,
"I think we should break up. We better this way." 

When I saw his message pop up on My facebook notification that time, I replied instanly, 
"Why? Tell me the reasons." 

I tried to act cool as I could, I tries to hold back my emotions.

He replied an hour later,

"I feel lonely with you. You were never give that much attention to me. Eventough we're far away you could video call everyday but you didn't. You are so ignorant. And I think I've found someone better for me. She is so affectionate. So we should break up." 

I read his reply and feel like I've been fooled. I am only a First grader high school that time. Well, he's not the first person who said he liked me but, he's officialy my first boyfriend eventough I've never met him. We met on facebook because we had the same interest on anime (japanesse cartoon) so we got close and he confessed. Yes. It's like they said dating online with a person you've never met. I am in Indonesia and he was in Malaysia. And at that time I still don't understand dating at all. Wheter what I should do or what should I said. And I don't even know how to video call him. I only use facebook at that time. 
It's 10 pm and my activity that day has been finished so I can go back to my room and I replied him, 
"Okay. I don't know what to say anymore." 

Then, I closed my browser page, lock my phone off then go to bed. 
"So It was what they called breaking up." 
I sulk in my bed and went to dreamland right away. 

I never told anyone about him but every one know it when they see my relationship status on facebook. I feel okay after that night. I did not feel any pain or sadness at all. We dated only few months anyway.
But few days later When I opened his facebook profile just because I want to know how he was doing. And he already has a new girlfriend. I've seen his wall and they write wall to wall everyday with a lot of cute emoticons, and the girlfriend said she would video call him tonight and all. So this is the type of girl that he wants me to be. Suddenly I think this is what they said "cheating". So he cheated with her behind because it's imposibble they already this close if the just know each other recently. 
Okay. I gave up. 
I wont give a damn if there's someone like him confessed anymore. I want something real not just cyber lover. I want things like these real. 

That's what I tought. 
I never expected  that I will experienced what I said in real. 
This only the begining. Before I met my soulmate painfully. 

Because of this person I learnt what love is and how it will make you happy as id you'll fly into the sky and then make you sad and feel like crumble down into the deepest dark hole easily. 
This person can turns my inside upside down easily. 

Why Can I have another? Why it has to be him? 

Stay tuned for the next chapter! ^^

Sunday, 11 October 2015

Saturday, 19 September 2015

Try Throwing Away That Pride For Once

This manga caps is my edit from my once favourite manga, but it's already ended. The mangaka of Hirunaka No Ryuusei is so gentle put the words that melts the readers who read her manga. The word choice was so perfect match and we can felt the characters feel better. I always love Yamamori Mika Sensei Mangas. 

But actually the word is just close enough with what I feel, please just throw your pride once to make me happy :)

Friday, 18 September 2015

One Thing

The Only things I am sure about is nobody will hurt me as much as you did. 
I am vulnerable when It comes to you. 


What I feel for you , 
It beats words. 
It beats words. 
I promise you. 

I still Love You anyway

How much you've hurt me or spit some hurtful words to me, I still love you. 
I don't know why, all that bad time starts to fade away and I don't remember whats hurt back then. Small mistakes and small hurt will fade away. 
Big mistakes, big fights will eventually be forgiven even we will never forget it. 

You are the same too, even how bad I am, how big my mistakes to you, you'll eventually forgive me and cannot stay angry at me. 

Me too, when you did something hurtful I can't angry or yelled at you. I cried silently, it always like that. 
People say, the highest act of love is when someone you love hurt you, you can't be mad at them and just cried because you think they just don't know what'd they doing. 

Whatever and However the sotuation is I will stay by your side, support you and protect you. Inshaa Allah :) 

Sunday, 13 September 2015

Saturdate ❤️

It's been a looong time since I've had a date on saturday night. It's fun. I'd accompany him to search some outfit like jacket and jeans and I did some hunting for SAMBIL JAJAN. 

We drove motorcycle on this hot city but it's okay. With you everything became cooler. Blaah :p

1st destination is Galaxy Mall. We came to Pull & Beat at first and then Stradivarius. After that we go up to Foodcourt Area and then found this old time ice cream ( I mean this ice cream is so popular back then hmm like 2 or 3 years ago) 
Yaay it's Murasaki Imo (Taro) Flavour never change just like before xD 

And then searching on centro for a while but get nothing and then strolling around. We got hungry and then stop by Suteki and decided to take a bite. (Well, not a bite actually :p). 

They hava promo tight now. 30.000 IDR get selected Sushi and 2 piece of Takoyaki with Ice Tea! Wow It became real cheaper you now! The First Dish was Sakura Roll and the second sushi was Snow Roll (my fav from this two).

Aaand we ordered some extra sushi for taste. Its Furai Roll xD

Huft. I am full already. After that we search some desserts and decided to try MoruMilk ( it's so hit lately but Goota still my favourite) 

After that we flew to Tunjungan Plaza to watch a movie cause we have two free pass but it only can be used in Tunjungan 21 and all other 21 cinema not XXI. 
So we walk around for a bit to Point Break and Matahari and then watch A movie "No Escape" this movie is surprisingly good. It tells a story about how Thailands People kill foreigner brutaly because some inside job. Well you should search the synopsis on IMDB for more. Pierce Brosnan on it so I am choose this movie over others xD 

Then finally we tired and go home x3
See you next time readers. 
Right now I am so excited writings on blog and I hope I can keep it up for the next few months or even years ^^

Saturday, 12 September 2015

New Banner !!!!

Kyaaa finally I make a Banner for this random blog xD 
It's simple but strong like this blog ehe ^^

Thank you for reading my blog whoever and wherever you are. God bless you :) 

Friday, 11 September 2015

Reach 400 Followers !!

Yahoooooo how's your day? 
Its late means my time to post something  like the blog said, "Let's chat before bed" ^^

I've started this instagram account 3 weeks ago and I keep posting one photo minimum on each day. And Now It has 411 followers already xD 

I know its not much but I am so happy! 
Keep support me so I can reach a tousand more followers ! 

Good night ! 

Wednesday, 9 September 2015

Define me

It's soo true! 
You can't define someone over their weight. This is how fat girl like I am defend themself actually ^^;

Wednesday, 26 August 2015

Sambil Jajan

Long time no see! 
I've been busy with final accesment and lots of things lately so I did forgot to update and tell you my story :( 

Things are going better now. Him, my self, and else. 

And Now I've started making a sosmed for food since I love to eat and captured what I eat 😁😁 

It just started a week ago 🎉!! 
Please follow instagram @sambiljajan for culinary update around Surabaya 

Don't forget to use #sambiljajan hashtag when you update photo about culinary  :)

And soon I'll update info about the food on mu other blog too! Do visit them , will you? aka Fresh Cappuccino. 

Allright, see you later! 

Friday, 22 May 2015

Short Story Of You

I Love You. ☺

These caption were describing all my feeling to you and our relationship or so people call it. I don't know why we stuck to each other like this. But I hope we will reach our happy ending together. ^^

Sunday, 10 May 2015

Design Your Own Cases with CASELOVA

This is own New Brand for personalized custom case.
you can custom with any picture for any phone type here!
just start from 90.000 IDR

Interested? find us here !

Thursday, 19 February 2015

We're gonna watch Kingsman : The Secret Service >.<

What I am excited about is not being with him (even tho I am hehe.
I waas so excited that we were going to watch Kingsman : The Secret Service !

It has 8.3 IMDB rating which is I believe that a movie with rating beyond 8 means a good damn movie.
Such as TLOTR, The Imitation Game (recent movie) , Interstellar, and many more.

So I was hoping that this movie has to be very awesome! :3

so I will post some review after this post okay. See you soon !

Sunday, 4 January 2015

It's hard to say "I do" when "I don't"

You're appealing to emotions that I simply do not have.
I just don't know how to say it to you cause I don't wanna hurt you too.